Saturday, March 20, 2010

If you held a gun to my head,

and forced me to choose a favorite band...I'd most likely answer Emery. This is one of my favorite songs of theirs.



The Q & A after the song is pretty awesome too.

Aspirations for growth

I think I've always wanted to have a garden of some sorts. A friend told me pretty recently that even though some people see it as kinda girly or stupid, there is a true sense of accomplishment that comes with having your own garden. I think there's something very paternal about having your own garden. Like the fruits of your labor (no pun intended) go straight from your backyard to your kitchen table. I find that pretty cool.
 
Maybe when I get home I'll start scouting an area to dig up and plant something. If there isn't time to plant something, I'll just prepare the area and start a compost. That in itself will be a task I'll be ready to tackle.

Just to clarify,

I honestly do try to get along with everyone that I know. I don't go out of my way to hurt people's feelings, degrade them, or make them feel less of themselves. It's not in my nature, nor do I believe it should be in anyone's nature. As I've said before, I don't have space for that kind of negativity in my life. I think that every human being has good qualities about them, it is merely up to them to let these good qualities shine through their personality. It's what makes someone a likeable, easygoing, happy-go-lucky person, as opposed to a negative person with a general distaste for everyday life.

I will admit however, there are people that have qualities that are proportionally opposite of what you are. These people are just different than you. You can almost call them your exact opposite. Occasionally we come across them in our day to day existence, and sometimes they stick around. Sometimes you work with a person like this. Sometimes it's a significant other of a friend of yours. Sometimes it's just a guy that works behind the counter where you buy gas.

Sometimes, it's someone you used to be married to.

I wonder if there are people out there that just do the opposite of someone else, just for the sake of. I think there are a certain quality of people out there that just thrive on anger, thrive on argument, thrive on being a malcontent. At least towards a certain person. It's just in their genetics. I'm sure you know someone that you could be standing outside with, and you could say, "The sky is blue today," when in fact the sky is blue, and they would find a way to challenge what you said. It's just their nature.

I guess you could say that I'm flattered that I have that kind of effect on someone. I'm a little disappointed it's such a negative effect, but it's kind of intriguing that there's someone out there that is just hating my guts merely for existing. That we see things SO differently that a simple, adult conversation cannot take place without typical defamatory remarks, raising of voices, and dredging up of the past.

I am more than willing to admit that what I did to sever my previous marriage was wrong. I've admitted that to several people, and even told this to my ex. It doesn't make any difference. She will hold it against me for the rest of my life. Or at least until my daughter turns eighteen and leaves her house. Once that happens, we won't have anything to say to each other.

Then, and only then, will I achieve some peace and quiet.